I seem to be stuck in a rut when it comes to my writing now...heck, I'm not going to lie to myself, it's been at least the last six months. I haven't written anything worth a crap since May, and that was for a WW game. I get ideas, start writing, and within a page or two I'm so down about what I've written that I can't bring myself to carry on.
I can't even write a damn ship-fic that I can bring myself to show to other people. My goal has always been to write a novel, I don't care whether its published, or even if anyone reads it other than me and my SO, but at the moment it seems further away than ever.
It's bloody frustrating, the ideas are there but the execution just isn't at the moment. Please don't let the pinnacle of my writing be the poem I got published when I was 6 _________________ Characters - Rhapsody, Custard
I'm tired of people. I'm tired of always being there emotionally for other people and not getting anything in return. I'm tired of people hating me when they don't even know me. I'm tired of people judging me because of what I wear, the fact that I walk with a cane (yes, they blame me for it), or because they think they have some right to judge everyone.
I'm tired of the sickness. I'm in a constant state of panic and agitation because I've got anxiety attacks, and they're getting worse and worse. I am constantly feeling fear--not of anything in particular, just the feeling of adrenaline. And it's part of the reason I'm hating people.
I'm tired of the migraines. I have a constant migraine between November and March. Another reason that I get pissy around this time of year. (Though I try to hide it because apparently I'm the best person to rant to whenever one of a million people here feels like they need to discuss their woes of their family not understanding them. Or that they can't keep a girlfriend.)
At this point...I really don't care anymore... _________________
It looks like it would be awesome for Easter baskets, right? Except when I got it the first time, I didn't even realize that's what I got. So I gave them the benefit of the doubt (I ordered a lot of things, so I thought it was just misplaced) and told them it hadn't been put in my shipment. I got it shipped, and upon seeing the bag I realized I had seen it. What was included in the bag?
Cheap little pinwheels that the kid that loves to play with rocks wouldn't even like.
Cheap bracelets to match the lanyards
Sandal Keychains--who knows what the hell they were thinking with that one
Oh, get this -- award ribbons. WTF?!
Fish shaped keychains.
Those little 5 cent mazes you get from Harvest Festivals
This is rediculous. Seriously. I don't want keychains and award ribbons. I want something the kids can play with. And I want what I payed for.
Don't buy kits from SSWW.
It's not the first time they've fudged on the kits. The coloring kits I got, the markers were dry.
Some of their stuff is awesome, but most of it is cheap crap. (Even if you pay for the quality of it.) _________________
I am tired of the term "If I can do it, anybody can do it." This usually comes from someone that has NO physical or mental disabilities.
Here's where I can see this term working:
A person with a learning disability going to school and getting As.
A physically challenged person winning a race.
Someone that is both doing about anything.
Someone that has personal trainers saying "If I can do it, anybody can do it" when they're trying to lose weight? Please. Of course you're going to lose weight if the place advertising it is going to have you on the commercial.
Someone that has no mental challenges or physical challenges going to college (nor any financial problems)? Another time that is rediculous to use the statement. My sister has a learning disability and she got straight A's in college. She doesn't go around saying that rediculous phrase. And she'd be one that I could see saying it.
I don't know where this cliche came from, but people need to stop using it. You are not as special as you think you are. Stop pretending that you've got some disability that makes the world a challenge for you. If your only challenge was "I was too lazy to go before, but now I have...yay me," then you should never say something like "If I can do it, anybody can do it." Lackadaisical attitude is not a hump to overcome that makes you something special. _________________
My sister's bf just got in a car accident. (No that's not what I'm mad about.) After Jenn got off the phone so she could call her bf to see exactly where he was, mom hung up the phone on the charger and went into the other room.
The phone rang, so I got up in a hurry to answer it, just in case it was her, hurting myself in the process. It was a stupid automated person from GameStop informing me that Pokemon Platinum would be in tomorrow...seriously, I don't need to wait 2 minutes for an automated thing to tell me something I already know... _________________
And, Giant seems to be stuck on the nightly database update.
This, on the night I stayed up, in part, to PM some of my fellow Acryonymites an idea for a plot involving our characters - one inspired and actually made better by something that had initially pissed me off, but after watching Stargate: Continuum on directors' commentary mode had cooled off and realised the Potential.
And now this.
Grr... _________________ "You have declared war upon the Cybermen."
I am SO tired of "Going Green." It was bad enough when it was on ads, but now it's all over TV shows. Even when it makes no sense.
A Wizards of Waverly Place comm:
"I'm going to change out all of the old light bulbs and put in CFLs.
...that's the little squiggly ones."
Why the hell would a wizard care?!
But there is one sliver of hope: House. House's new episodes are all about being green, of course (my dad says that Obama's sorta pressing on TV to be more green, and that's what's with all of this crap) but a House comm:
"Do I get extra points if I pretend that I care?"
At least not every character in the world suddenly cares. Of course, it wouldn't be House if he cared. _________________
As is, of course, known, there's a minor hiccup in the world's economy going on at the moment, and everybody, right up to and incuding, government, is having to tighten their belts.'
Well, Florida's government just finished some belt-tightening. Among those things cut has been, apparently, preferred stadium seating for lawmakers.
...which is, however, not my point. With all the possible pork that could be carved out of the budget, instead they decided to go after something that, one presumes, was selected either because it gored no oxen, or because everybody's ox would be gored:
Namely, $21.8 million in funding for the state's libraries.
That clucking you hear is the chickens feeding on that amount.
Plus, a large number of libraries, mostly rural ones, including the one I voluenteer at, won't be able to afford to stay open if this doesn't get put back into the budget.
But education is important, dontcha know.
_________________ "You have declared war upon the Cybermen."
...you know, given the fact that even with the forums closed, the new-comic server load is so bad that even on broadband it won't even TRY to load most of the time, I really don't buy the "the forum causes Giant's server problem" argument. _________________ "You have declared war upon the Cybermen."
People who invade nice innocent D&D forums with nasty images should be shot. I mean, why? Why bother? What do they achieve? most GitP'ers so far haven't replied to the threads, thankfully - no one is feeding a troll that I suspect didn't stick around anyway. _________________ The characters (major update 11/07/2010)
Through my first week of exams... wasn't too bad. My expectations of myself are kinda high so I'm aiming for A* in every subject... doubt I'll get in English, but I'm not too worried about the others. Heh, I still have to revise like a third of the Biology syllabus, when I have two out of three of the Biology exams next Wednesday... oh yeah. That reminds me.
Next Wednesday, I have four exams in one day: Spanish Writing first thing in the morning, then a loooong break... and then two biology exams and then a Maths AS Paper. Seriously, wtf. I suppose it's my fault for doing Maths a year early and thus having it colliding with GCSEs and therefore having multiple exams on the same day. Woohoo. _________________
Fortunately, spiders in the UK are not really dangerous. The baby spiders hatching at this time of year are small enough to be a nuisance only and not set me off on a phobic panic or whatever you call it when you freeze and/or scream.
However, there must have been a nest we didn't know about in the bedroom because at least 30 of the rotten things have hatched and taken up residence in the curtains, and baby spiders love to make webs, so half the bedroom is webified tonight. Yuk! _________________ The characters (major update 11/07/2010)
It is considered normal to go out and sleep with a new person every night. (It's funny when you read it in comics like LICD, but not in real life.) If someone wants to wait until the wedding night, they're considered a freak and are mocked until they finally give in to society (that's what happened to my sister.)
My sister is currently sleeping with random people. Now, it's within the same group--sorta like those wife swapping communities, but with the 'friends with benefits' crowd--but that doesn't make it any less sickening.
And she doesn't just keep it to herself...oh no...she's gotta tell me and Mom (and even more surprisingly, Dad) all about it.
For those that don't know, I'm highly religious. I know I go against the code sometime, but I always try to see what I'm doing wrong and stop it. I do not want to know that my sister is practically a walking sex toy...
And yeah, you probably didn't want to know--don't care...but I had to rant somewhere... _________________
It is spelt "Cool". Notice the "C" at the beginning.
Not "Kool". That makes you look like a complete and utter ass.
The other thing that bugs me is chatspeak when you are creating a quiz on facebook, or the suchlike. Good gods people, you aren't under some time restraint so bad that you have to use UR or OMG or something! Nor is it gonna cost you more to use proper english for once in your whole pathetic life! _________________
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